I deeply regret accepting this Family Video job. I really feel like it’s not for me. I’m so anxious about working Saturday that I can’t even think about it too hard.
A part of me wants to stick it out and try and see if I can pull through and gain something from the experience, but another part of me thinks I should just realize how far out of my depth I am and quit while I’m ahead because I am so not an aggressively confident person and I can tell my manager is already disappointed by my lack of initiative. It’s just really hard to showcase the communication/customer service skills I have when I don’t know how to do so many things essential to my job yet. I want to help people to the best of my ability but O don’t know the right keys to accomplish what I want in the POS, which makes me feel helpless.
I really wish I’d gotten the full-time circ position I applied for at the library but it went to someone with more experience. Going on six years if library experience and I still can’t get promoted beyond part-time.
I’m so poor and so in debt and so mired in self-hate for not having my shit more together by now.